Oh my, it's already so long since the last time I wrote down..

Today, after 2 weeks in the class.. Sometimes I still miss my besties.

But, we met at last hahaha...

It might be simple, only went to the cinema and had a dinner..

But I like it.. simple but friendly..

But today, I realized there are some things hold my neck tightly.

Actually I realized some weeks ago. But I really understand now.

"You can't judge the book by its cover"

I said it was true... I couldn't judge something that used to be happened in my life now.

But I couldn't see the truth itself.

"Older means know everything"

Maybe that was true. Well, did 'everything' that time is the same as 'everything' now?

I even surprised with the knowledge changes.

"Little kids, don't speak!"

Maybe I AM kid, small, immature, stupid and everything they said I 'am'. But can't I tell my opinion? Why did they said "You're the one who don't know". But, they didn't let me know, they didn't answer my question. Then how should I know it?

"Mediator is a great job"

I was thinking that was true. But I just a MEDIATOR, should they scold me? A said to tell B, and B was angry to me because I said "A said blablabla and A wants me to tell you that". What the...???

"You should said sorry first"

I knew it but I can't. A said this, B said that. I followed A, B got angry. I followed B, A got angry. What now..??

"You should believe me"

Could you believe me, when I couldn't believe you even for a word?

"You should give some to him/her"

Why should I? He/she always said "No good" and throw it. So?

But the last thing I learned and tried.

"Forgive with all you are"

It might be hard. But when I could do it again, I love it. I was like it, and I forgot about it. And now.. I wanna be back.. Be back to myself. I don't care if they scold me, I will accept it as a critic to make me a better me.

I wanna be back to myself, and I want myself back to me.

And I know, I can do that, I'll do my best!!

Keep the chin up, be strong and cheers ^^