Learn to Love with Pain

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Above this, is a link to the original and the inspiration of this post....
After a long time quiting this blogging.. It made me touched to share it, now!

“Love until it hurts.” – Mother Teresa

Oh my, I rarely read more about Mother Teresa.. but I've heard of this quote before hmm...
Ok, back to the blog.

Love is measured by the pain. Is it?
Yes, it is!

I've learned about this before.... but I didn't realize that it's true...
A bit of regret is coming thru my blood, but I believe my decision was a better way.

Loving him, is such a pain.. It so hard to stand by with him, caring him
when he was blocking my future
when he looked to other girls
when he took something that I know I have gone far to get it
when he flip up and down my smile
when he made my mood so gloomy
when he made my eyes shut with a 'sound' of tears falling down
But I was loving him. I did love him. I did care him.
It was hurt, really truly, extraordinary hurt...

But then I saw, that I made the others (who are more important than him) CRY
not the cry with the screaming or tears
but the cry that they're gone away from me
the cry that made me realize I AM DEAD

And I chose not to love him again, but to love Him..
And I know it was better, it is better, and it is the best..
He, Who sacrifice more to protect me
He, Who always there with me
He, Who always pour my tears away so that I can smile
He, Who loves me more than anything... I don't know if it's more than anything
but I do believe it is.. :)
Cause I can feel it, deep inside, in to my heart and head
He loves me and He is calling for me

God, Jesus, Thank You for what You've given to me...
Thank You for using me as a messenger of love... especially Your love :)