Live in Your Own Life, not Others

"I want to be her".
"I am not as strong as her, you know".
"I can not sing like her".
"I can not be like her".

It is what anybody can say and anybody used to say.
==What you say, is that come from your brain, and you will get as the same as what you said==
If you don't believe it, then you can try it. Any word that comes out from your mouth, will be true. Because what you said and what you think is a command to universe. And it depends, if you really want it and you used to say it, the faster you get it.

I used to say that I wanted to be free, I wanted to be somebody else. But, what I got was more problems, I was not as free as now. And I became sad and mad. And the bad thing was when I couldn't cry...

==Laugh when you happy, Cry when you sad. And see the beautifull world==

I was hoping I could do that. But the next day, I really did it. I cried, and then I saw the rainbow. It was not sooooooo beautifull maybe. But as you could feel it, you would see something different as a beautifull thing after you felt the sadness.

I was hoping I can do it again. And when I didn't cry for what really made me sad, I felt so sad. It was getting worse and worst. I wanted to be like everybody else, who was strong and not a 'crybaby'. And it was getting worse and worst. Until I could not hold it anymore. Until I felt so depresed. Then I just cried, I said "I need love" to myself. But my words didn't come out to anybody, who I believe they could give me love. I just cried and cried. Until I felt really weak. And I knew I had to be me. No matter what, I needed to face it, I needed to be myself.

So I started again to be myself. I just let my tears fell down. Even though it was just a bit, but I felt better. I could feel that I was not that strong, and I admited that I was sad.

I don't want to be others anymore, it is not as beautifull as I think. I want to face my own destiny. Because that is what God wants me to do. He wants me to do 'these' not 'those'. He wants me to be me, not her. He wants to see the real smile and happiness that He had prepared, not the one that I copy. He wants me to live in my life, not others. He wants everyone to always praise and thank and remember, that He is God of all. And we as the parts of His Kingdom.

Thanks Lord